moving day - delayed reaction

I just realized that I never posted a blog about moving to a new apartment, ha ha. The last post that talked about my living situation said that I was saving up money so that Kim & Mac and I could get a bigger place. Well... what actually transpired turned out to be completely different.

We all had a conversation one evening about how cramped we all felt sharing their one-bedroom apartment, and I knew that my 5-month stay was long enough... Even before I said it, I knew they agreed. It just felt like it was time to stretch my little wings again and find a place of my own. They weren't ready to leave their kick-ass 6th-floor apartment with an amazing view of the bay, and I don't blame them. Also, they get their privacy back and I don't have to feel like I'm mooching off some of my closest friends. (Although, I did buy all the groceries nearly the whole time I lived there, I tried to contribute more, but they wouldn't let me... ha ha) So after that conversation, I stopped going out, tried my best not to spend any money and saved two paychecks up and moved out.

I now live with two lovely ladies, Diosa and Ashley. If you haven't met them yet, you need to come over to my place after 6ish on a weekday or anytime during the weekend pretty much... and do just that. They will crack you up and have you saying "OMG I LOVE YOU" to them before you've left. I promise. These ladies are amazing. Clean. Friendly. Giving. Caring. Humorous. The good kind of smokers. Although they are straight and they EAT MEAT... I've decided to let those two factors slide and deem them totally rad! Can't blame them for being born that way, and carnivorism is a choice I leave up to each person and don't try to force my herbivorism on them. We signed our lease today (finally, it'd been a month since we moved in!) and so we are officially going to be living there til June of this year with a lease renewal until June 2010... So most likely I won't be moving for almost a year and a half, which is AMAZING for me.

I am going to make the ladies have a photo shoot with me sometime soon, I want to frame some pictures for our apartment and post them all over the internet. :) Until then, I think I have a picture of each of them on MySpace as well as links to their pages via their names above.

g'night kiddos!

Headlock.

I feel so strange lately. Slight contradictions are occurring, and I dunno... There's a curve in the road of my life and I don't know what's around it just yet. Here's more patience the Universe is trying to teach me, I guess. Though, I will admit, I am vastly more patient than I was a few months ago... so obviously the Universe knows what it's doing, as per usual. Don't know why I even think of doubting it.

There is also a situation I find myself in... and it feels oddly familiar, except I'm on a different side of the spectrum, now seeing it in its entirety... and understanding why people do the things they do, even if it would be so easy to change the situation. Yes... someone is going to get hurt. I won't even say probably because it's a simple fact: someone will get hurt. Change does NOT occur without someone's parade getting thrown off course. Thankfully enough I have a heart and a brain that are both fully functional, and I have the sense and decency to remove myself from the situation completely until things settle down and the necessary changes have been made. Again with the patience thing... just gotta take a step back, wait it out, and resume the friendship.

The other situation in my life is constantly throwing me for a loop. One minute, the story goes like this, the next minute... it's that. But honestly, I prefer the latter. I want to be missed, I want to have plans, I want this feeling to last, I want it to grow, I want it to be something wonderful... I want, I want, I want.

"Patience, child." The Universe tells me. "Patience."

I'm usually a quick study, but in the practice of learning patience, there's obviously no 'quick' is there? The constant struggle in my life is letting go. I used to have things put together in my life so I controlled everything, and I would get upset if it did not go according to plan. These days, I try not to plan much in advance, and set little to no expectations for everything. I think that these things have helped to build to this learning experience, or at least are enhancing the learning process, so that I learn it better.

ZEN.

Someday I will be a patient person. For now, I shall simply strive to be.

Dear Hoopalicious:

You make me jealous of your mad hooping skills. Please come stay at my house for a few months and teach me everything you know. It would be really fun, we could go for long walks and hoop all the way down the street, stopping often to practice a fun trick and to hold hands. :)

Let me know when you're free and I'll have my people call your people. Thanks!

Sincerely,
Jeru

Patience is a virtue.

The universe is teaching me patience, since I obviously do not possess this virtue. I am discovering that it is a difficult lesson to learn.

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Patience (pā-shəns) is the state of endurance under difficult circumstances, which can mean persevering in the face of delay or provocation without becoming annoyed or upset; or exhibiting forbearance when under strain, especially when faced with longer-term difficulties. It is also used to refer to the character trait of being steadfast. Antonyms include hasty and impetuous.


{My card of the day on Saturday was 'Patience', followed by 'Spontaneity' on Sunday and 'Understanding' today... coincidence? No. I have learned that there is no such thing.}

The Hooping Life

This is rad. I want to find more about this. I want to meet these people and have them teach me more about hooping.

I started doing torso hooping this week, and also learned how to drop it to my knees. :) I am so proud of myself for sticking with it and actually practicing and improving. I've been doing that with all my little hobbies lately. After I get better at hooping, I'm going to start practicing the keyboards more again, and refresh that memory of how to play... and maybe get some guitar lessons down the road.

I am glad that I finally got tired of not really being good at anything. It is making me work harder at everything and GET better.... so maybe someday I can actually do something well. :)

I know you wanna check out my components....

Riding in your tank like you own it, oh
You keep on riding in your tank like you own it, uh
I said you know I wanna check out your components, uh
Girl, you know i wanna check out your components

Bombing up the place like you own it, oh
You keep on bombing up the place like you own it, oh
I said you got the good stuff baby, won't you flaunt it, oh yeah
You got the good stuff baby won't you flaunt it, gonna flaunt it.

Said It's cool, you're touching my hand
Yeah it's cool, its cool, where we riding too?
So come on sugar, you're touching my hand
Yeah it's cool it's cool, where we riding to?
So look out

I'm playing my guitar like I own it, oh
I keep on playing my guitar like I own it, yeah
I said you know you wanna check out my components, yeah
That's right you know you wanna check out my components

You're touching on my hand like you own it, oh
You keep on touching on my hand like you own it, uh
I said you got the good stuff baby won't you flaunt it, yeah
I said you got the good stuff baby won't you flaunt it
Gonna flaunt it, yeah

Said it's cool, you're touching my hand
Yeah it's cool
It's cool, where we riding to?
So come on sugar, touching my hand
Yeah it's cool, it's cool, where we riding to?
So come on
yeah come on
so where we riding to?
Yeah come on
so come on
I said, where we riding to?

- MGMT "Boogie Down"

4 days in.....

January 26 is the start of the Chinese New Year -- and it's the Year of the Earth Ox! This hard-working Chinese sign means a year of general progress.

Ox: It's your year. Reach for the love, money and luck that are headed your way! Make the most of these gifts as they arrive.

- I was born in 1985, which is the year of the Ox.
- I am reaching for love and hope she reaches back fully
- Luck has found me in some ways, and is starting to in others
- I'm waiting for money to head my way

My Chinese New Year started with my cat dying... which was bad news, but he isn't suffering anymore and that is good news. Right after that I got approved for my new place and started getting an extra day a week at work. I always have some sort of good/bad balance in my life. It's strange.

I hope things work out. I want them to. I want stability and love. I want a real life again. I can feel how close I am to grasping the things I want in life. I just have to be patient. The universe is teaching me this as we speak. I'm not a very good pupil, ha ha.

thoughts.

This is my life. I am enjoying myself in the things I am doing. Working more on my art, riding my bicycle, learning hooping tricks, being a good friend, being more active in the community, and taking life in to the fullest. Trying to get my life fully on track so I can go to school. (Although it's not just up to me, my brother is supposed to co-sign for my student loan.) I want to get my car fixed so that I have reliable long-distance transportation. (I've promised myself I won't get lazy again after I have a car, but will only use it when necessary.) I want to fix up my current bicycle and also purchase another and fix that one up too. I want to keep my job, because I absolutely love it. I want to see my daughter more. I want to enjoy the little things in life more. I want to share all of that with someone special.

Super Bowl XLIII

adios amigo.

I'm still trying to wrap my brain around the fact that he's gone.


Samuel L. Jackson - born Sept 1996, died January 2009.
12 years old, had a happy, fat, comfy life.
Cuddlebug til the end.

You will be missed.

oxox