school

I'm finally going back.

Starting on April 7th, 2009.... I will be attending Marinello School of Beauty on 7th & Mission in San Francisco.

My class schedule is 8:30 am - 5 pm Tuesday through Saturday.
My work Schedule is 12 am - 7 am Sunday through Thursday.

Which equals Friday & Saturday nights off, Sunday & Monday during the day off. That's IT.

So keep this in mind when you call/text/try to make plans with me. I love you, but I really just won't have any free time.

oxox

Domestic Violence isn't ok.

If you're in a violent relationship with a woman and you need help (which, you DO), visit http://www.vawnet.org. If you're in a violent relationship with a man and need help (which, you DO), visit http://www.ndvh.org.
(got this from Arlan - Your Daily Lesbian Moment Blog)

Libra

23rd September - 23rd October

Symbol: The Scales

“Whatever dispute needs resolution, the scales will see to it, well acquainted with the tables of the law.” (Manilius, 1st Century)

Libra is the only sign of the zodiac not represented by any living creature, but that doesn’t make its symbol any less powerful.

The scales represent a Librans need for balance and peace in their lives.
This can mean an avoidance of decision making, or acting as a mediator to resolve conflict.

Element: Air

Just like The Scales, Air can also represent a need for balance, and objectivity.

Air signs essentially rule their lives with their minds, making them clever thinkers and astute observers.

The other main quality associated with air is flexibility, enabling an air sign to adapt or bring new viewpoints to situations.

Star-stone: Sapphire

A sapphire is considered to be one of the luckiest star stones, unless you are unfaithful in a relationship.

Legend has it that a Sapphire losing its shimmer indicates impurity.
Legends also state that Sapphires were prized tools for ancient priests when they were predicting the future.

Characteristics:

With the need for balance and peace, comes a dislike of conflict, and so many Librans will refrain from taking sides and offending people.

A Librans need for peace and balance can also have a positive effect in their friendships, making them great listeners and problem solvers.

They hate to be alone so this also makes them very sociable beings.

Compatibility:

Surprisingly, Librans are not always compatible with fellow Librans due to their laid-back attitudes. You can have too much of a good thing with some personality traits!

Librans generally get along well with the other air signs (Gemini and Aquarius), and the fire signs of Aries, Leo, and Sagittarius.
The core characteristics of both these elements can complement or mirror each other, often leading to the peace, harmony, intellect, or social buzz that Librans seek.

Famous Faces Born Under Libra:

Sarah Ferguson. (Royalty) Ralph Lauren, Donna Karan. (Fashion) John Lennon, Meat Loaf, Olivia Newton John. ( Singing) Michael Douglas, Kate Winslet, Will Smith. (Acting)

Green Zone Productions

CARNAVAL SAN FRANCISCO'S

ECO - GREEN FESTIVAL

Saturday and Sunday

MAY 24 th and 25th 2009

COME JOIN US on HARRISON and TREAT at 17th Street

IN SAN FRANCISCO'S MISSION DISTRICT

In honor of its 30th Anniversary, Carnaval San Francisco is proud to introduce ZONA VERDE, an ecologically-friendly event spreading over one whole city block. Organic food, renewable energy, earth-friendly products, art and garden installations, and sacred healing ceremonies will be brought together at Carnaval San Francisco's ZONA VERDE. Come participate in this creative two-day extravaganza of education, celebration, and healing dedicated to bringing attention to pressing environmental issues in a friendly celebratory manner that reflects the spirit of Carnaval San Francisco.



(randomly ran into Douglas today, one of the founders of GZP, and now I'm trying to get some hoopers together to hoop at a few of the events they are planning this year. He said that as compensation, if there is anything that we make & want to sell, we can set up a booth for free.)

green zone productions' MySpace page

moo.

everyone wants the milk, but not the cow.

vow.

So I went through some old MySpace messages today... and I was reminded of a vow I made to my friends at Pride last June... I told them I wouldn't have a girlfriend for at least a year. I'm realizing that it's been 9 months since then... so that year is drawing to a close. If I also remember correctly, I stated that I'd like to stay single for up to 2 years..... so maybe the reason for my staying single is because I spoke it into existance.... hm.

Well, this is what I speak into my life now. I vow to be the best person I can be. I vow to put my daughter and myself first, and not worry about whether or not I have a significant other. If I should happen to meet a girl and get to know her and we both decide to try a relationship, then I'd be totally down for that... if not, then I'm fine the way I am. I enjoy my freedom and my friendships, and my friendships-with-benefits.... (although it would be nice to have something meaningful) so at this point in my life, that's how it is.

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Dear Universe:

Thank you for the lessons on patience. I have a feeling they are going to last a bit longer.

moving day - delayed reaction

I just realized that I never posted a blog about moving to a new apartment, ha ha. The last post that talked about my living situation said that I was saving up money so that Kim & Mac and I could get a bigger place. Well... what actually transpired turned out to be completely different.

We all had a conversation one evening about how cramped we all felt sharing their one-bedroom apartment, and I knew that my 5-month stay was long enough... Even before I said it, I knew they agreed. It just felt like it was time to stretch my little wings again and find a place of my own. They weren't ready to leave their kick-ass 6th-floor apartment with an amazing view of the bay, and I don't blame them. Also, they get their privacy back and I don't have to feel like I'm mooching off some of my closest friends. (Although, I did buy all the groceries nearly the whole time I lived there, I tried to contribute more, but they wouldn't let me... ha ha) So after that conversation, I stopped going out, tried my best not to spend any money and saved two paychecks up and moved out.

I now live with two lovely ladies, Diosa and Ashley. If you haven't met them yet, you need to come over to my place after 6ish on a weekday or anytime during the weekend pretty much... and do just that. They will crack you up and have you saying "OMG I LOVE YOU" to them before you've left. I promise. These ladies are amazing. Clean. Friendly. Giving. Caring. Humorous. The good kind of smokers. Although they are straight and they EAT MEAT... I've decided to let those two factors slide and deem them totally rad! Can't blame them for being born that way, and carnivorism is a choice I leave up to each person and don't try to force my herbivorism on them. We signed our lease today (finally, it'd been a month since we moved in!) and so we are officially going to be living there til June of this year with a lease renewal until June 2010... So most likely I won't be moving for almost a year and a half, which is AMAZING for me.

I am going to make the ladies have a photo shoot with me sometime soon, I want to frame some pictures for our apartment and post them all over the internet. :) Until then, I think I have a picture of each of them on MySpace as well as links to their pages via their names above.

g'night kiddos!

Headlock.

I feel so strange lately. Slight contradictions are occurring, and I dunno... There's a curve in the road of my life and I don't know what's around it just yet. Here's more patience the Universe is trying to teach me, I guess. Though, I will admit, I am vastly more patient than I was a few months ago... so obviously the Universe knows what it's doing, as per usual. Don't know why I even think of doubting it.

There is also a situation I find myself in... and it feels oddly familiar, except I'm on a different side of the spectrum, now seeing it in its entirety... and understanding why people do the things they do, even if it would be so easy to change the situation. Yes... someone is going to get hurt. I won't even say probably because it's a simple fact: someone will get hurt. Change does NOT occur without someone's parade getting thrown off course. Thankfully enough I have a heart and a brain that are both fully functional, and I have the sense and decency to remove myself from the situation completely until things settle down and the necessary changes have been made. Again with the patience thing... just gotta take a step back, wait it out, and resume the friendship.

The other situation in my life is constantly throwing me for a loop. One minute, the story goes like this, the next minute... it's that. But honestly, I prefer the latter. I want to be missed, I want to have plans, I want this feeling to last, I want it to grow, I want it to be something wonderful... I want, I want, I want.

"Patience, child." The Universe tells me. "Patience."

I'm usually a quick study, but in the practice of learning patience, there's obviously no 'quick' is there? The constant struggle in my life is letting go. I used to have things put together in my life so I controlled everything, and I would get upset if it did not go according to plan. These days, I try not to plan much in advance, and set little to no expectations for everything. I think that these things have helped to build to this learning experience, or at least are enhancing the learning process, so that I learn it better.

ZEN.

Someday I will be a patient person. For now, I shall simply strive to be.

Dear Hoopalicious:

You make me jealous of your mad hooping skills. Please come stay at my house for a few months and teach me everything you know. It would be really fun, we could go for long walks and hoop all the way down the street, stopping often to practice a fun trick and to hold hands. :)

Let me know when you're free and I'll have my people call your people. Thanks!

Sincerely,
Jeru

Patience is a virtue.

The universe is teaching me patience, since I obviously do not possess this virtue. I am discovering that it is a difficult lesson to learn.

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Patience (pā-shəns) is the state of endurance under difficult circumstances, which can mean persevering in the face of delay or provocation without becoming annoyed or upset; or exhibiting forbearance when under strain, especially when faced with longer-term difficulties. It is also used to refer to the character trait of being steadfast. Antonyms include hasty and impetuous.


{My card of the day on Saturday was 'Patience', followed by 'Spontaneity' on Sunday and 'Understanding' today... coincidence? No. I have learned that there is no such thing.}